Erik, Jenn, Tyler & Mason

I have so many blessings. Lately I have had more than I can count. Most recently, here are some of the blessings I have noticed: A loving husband Wonderful, caring friends The Atonement of Jesus Christ Faith in my Savior The perfect house dropped in our laps for dirt cheap A great career A very strong mother Loving and supportive grandparents A healthy pregnancy Success in my career A very supportive Young Women presidency and Mia Maid advisor Less migraines than usual Several non-member friends investigating the church because of my sister's funeral Enough money to have what I need and most of what I want A hunger for the scriptures' teachings Good memories of Sarah to lean on Wonderful in-laws A potty-trained dog who likes to cuddle when I need it A flexible work schedule The knowledge of where Sarah is and what she's doing right now The promise that we can be together forever (and will be) The many blessings and teachings of the holy temple A positive work environment Re...

I wrote this email to Romi, Jaime's sister today, and I like how it came out. So instead of rewriting my feelings, I'll just post them on here. I miss my sister with a passion I've never felt toward any other person. I loved and continue to love her more than I have ever loved anyone else on earth. I would have happily gotten in that car if it could have been me instead of her. My heart breaks to know that she died in pain and fear. However, somehow I am making it through this. I feel the prayers of hundreds behind me and the arms of Heavenly Father holding me up when all I want to do is lie down. Coupled with the knowledge of the atonement, I am surprisingly able to "hang in there" knowing what I know about where she is, who she's with and what she's doing right this minute. I only hope she can forgive me for all the dumb big sister things I did to her and the bad choices I made when I was younger. I still find myself believing that she's no...

So many have reached out to us with love and support. I want to thank you all. I still have no words but I want you to see what others have to say: Click here to see Sarah's Guest Book

Sarah, if you can read this, I love you. I miss you. I will live my life for you. I will never forget you. I forgive you. I can't wait to be with you again. I know you are in a better place now. Please know that I love you and that none of us blame you for this. I dreamed about you last night. After you died. It was around 1:00am, before I found out you were gone. I dreamed we were in church together, sitting in Young Women's class. You looked beautiful, happy. I want to remember us like that. Together and happy. I'm still in shock. I'm at the airport right now going home for the first time in over a year so I can be with my mom. My cousin sent me this article a few minutes ago which just makes it all seem even more real. Click here to see the article

My poor mom-- I sent her to read my blog yesterday so she could see pix of the ultrasound. She'd never seen my blog before, so she read most of it. And of course, in all my haste I've never once posted anything about her. It's not because I don't love her, quite the opposite in fact. I'm just always focused on whatever it is I want to write about, that I fail to mention some of the most important people in my life. Well I want you to know, my mom is an incredible woman. No, really. She is the most intelligent person I've ever met. She speaks like she majored in English and can do math like a wiz. She's an excellent attorney--always giving me free legal advice and helping me clean up any potential litigious actions I get myself into ;). She's gorgeous, always has been. She's always had the guys falling all over themselves for her. She has a testimony of the Gospel and she's very strong willed. She's the best interior decorator I...

Here is our beautiful little baby!!! Isn't he/she gorgeous? Yes, we are having only one, there are no twins in there. We even got to hear the heartbeat! It was so loud and fast! It was 170 BPM. Pretty sure it's a girlie!! It was so amazing to hear it and know it's inside me, growing and living. This is a picture of the umbilical chord. It's amazing to see it--it's a lot more real when you can see it. The coolest part was when I would breathe in and out and you could see the baby move a little with each breath I took. I can't wait to go back again-- they want me to do 2 more ultra sounds in the next month!! Everyone wants to know why they want me to do 2 more ultra sounds... Apparently when they screen for Down Syndrome they like to do an ultra sound and then they like to do one 2 weeks later when they screen for some other abnormality. We won't find out if it's a boy or girl until the first week of October. It's ok, I like having a lot of ultra so...