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Staying home sounds nice....

I am totally frustrated today. I work so hard at my job and I try to do my best but sometimes you just get one of those clients who can't be pleased! I think he is unreasonable but he thinks I am an idiot.

So I just have this unshakeable yucky feeling this morning as I try to go about my business. Like, could I have done something differently to make this guy happy? Probably. Did I do anything wrong? Probably not. Do I wish he would take his business elsewhere? Yes. Is that a good way for me to feel about a client I just recently signed? No.

I don't know what I'm trying to say. I am just frustrated and I thought, 'Hey I should write in on my blog.' Why? I don't know. Who cares.

I guess when you bring in $10 million dollars of investment assets in 6 months you are bound to have one of the clients not like you. I was just getting so used to having everything go so smoothly!

Makes me want to just be a total stay at home Mom. I say that now, but the truth is I would miss my job after 2.3 days. When I was on vacation for Christmas I couldn't wait to get back to work. My job is challenging, tough and exciting. It's also usually pretty rewarding. But I gotta tell you, I think being a Mom is going to be a lot more fun on days like today.

My plan is to work part time so I can spend as much time at home with Tyler as possible. I know I could never leave my job, it's like an addiction. But I look so forward to spending time with my son and of course I can't even imagine how great it will be. I also wonder how hard is it going to be for me to leave him for the first time. It will be relatively easy though, since Jaime is the one watching him. It's not like I'm leaving him with some random babysitter. But I will miss him terribly!!!

All I can do is pray to make sure I am doing what Heavenly Father wants me to do. I certainly don't want to put my career before my family but I feel strongly that at this time in my life I am supposed to do both for a while. Though after today, I just want to crawl in bed and never get out...

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Stephanie said…
I think once you have Tyler you'll be having the same feelings. When I went back to work with Katie she was almost 4 months old and at work I kept thinking of what she would be doing at that time. I LOVE my job, but I have days that I just want to stay at home with the kids. However, at the same time it is a relief to get away from the kids for awhile, have adult conversation, and know that you're contributing in more ways then taking care of the children (which is a HUGE contribution).
I really do want to stay at home, but know being a stay at home mom brings all sorts of challenges and work that right now I'm escaping from for awhile. So, there are pros and cons to each decision.
I don't think the feelings will go away, but as time goes on you'll have more clarity to what you should do. For right now, I'm personally glad that I have the challenge of juggling work and the kids so that later I can hopefully appreciate what it is like to be a stay at home mom.
I'm sure things with your client will get better and that you are doing an amazing job at work.
yes some days staying home is nice but trust me 3 kids (u will have one) drive me nuts!!!! I still work part time two nights a week I get to talk to adults and not worry about being a mommy for a couple of hours. Regardless of what they say about staying home mommy you have to do what is right for you and don't let anyone tell you different. I too went back to work full time when Jared was 6weeks old it was hard but neccesary for Jon and I to both work full time. I love being a Mom and I like my part time gig. So if your happy so be it.
You ever need advice or a listening ear I am here for you.
Love Heather

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