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I wrote this email to Romi, Jaime's sister today, and I like how it came out. So instead of rewriting my feelings, I'll just post them on here.

I miss my sister with a passion I've never felt toward any other person. I loved and continue to love her more than I have ever loved anyone else on earth. I would have happily gotten in that car if it could have been me instead of her. My heart breaks to know that she died in pain and fear.

However, somehow I am making it through this. I feel the prayers of hundreds behind me and the arms of Heavenly Father holding me up when all I want to do is lie down. Coupled with the knowledge of the atonement, I am surprisingly able to "hang in there" knowing what I know about where she is, who she's with and what she's doing right this minute.

I only hope she can forgive me for all the dumb big sister things I did to her and the bad choices I made when I was younger. I still find myself believing that she's not gone and that she will walk through the door any minute.

I look forward to the day when I will complete her temple work and be sealed to my mom with and for my little sister so that I will know that we'll be together forever. The hope of that is what keeps me going.

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Keep'n up with the Cameron said…
You are so strong...my mom told me what happened...I'm so sorry! You and your family are in my prayers.
August 21, 2008 at 4:17 PM
Analisa-creator of hairblingzcutethings said…
that was so sweet and beautifully written! you really are being so strong. keep remembering you are surrounded by people that love you and are here for you. It was great to see you last night.
August 22, 2008 at 3:46 PM
Anonymous said…
Jennifer,

I'm very sorry to read about this. I can't imagine how it must feel. Isn't it good to have faith in God and the Atonement during these times?

You and your family are in our prayers.

aaron
August 24, 2008 at 6:34 PM
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